What I wish I knew... (Week 2)

I've decided to make this a weekly post about what I wish I knew back then and what I wish I could know now. So here goes:

When I was 16 I wish I knew:

• I wish that I knew it was wrong of my therapist in treatment to tell us that 'we aren't in the business of making people gain weight'

• I wish I knew that most of the people in my treatment center would be there for eating disorders that heavily involved restriction and not similar ones to me. I feel like that was hard to be the only one who binged.

• I wish I knew that it would have been ok to ask my parents to go to a different treatment facility

• I wish I knew I would have to stop seeing my outside therapist when I entered treatment because my treatment center only let you see their therapists

• I wish I knew that it would have been ok to break up with the guy I was dating back then

• I wish I knew that I would find my current boyfriend who I love who actually loves me

• I wish I knew I would get stronger

• I wish I knew that one day things really would get better

• I wish I knew that I didn't have to look like the girls to deserve love and that I always did deserve love, I just didn't know it

• I wish I knew I was worthy. I was worthy of life and love and happiness. I wish I knew that I was not worthless like I used to think I was.